Some of you (I know at least one of you!) may have noticed that A Year of Ordinary Days has been still since I hit my one year mark.

To be honest I've been very torn about where to go with it. 

I started with such a clear intent last summer. I wanted to see if I could stick with it for a whole year, and I did, and it was wonderful.

And now….. what?

Honestly, I don't want to give it up. I love being able to look back and remember a little moment from every single day.  

But at the same time, towards the end it became a lot to keep up with. I was always getting behind on posting pictures. And sometimes I felt that the need to have a photo of all those special moments distracted me a little bit from just being still and enjoying them.

And again, I loved having such a clear purpose for it this last year.

Can you tell I'm a little conflicted about this?

So this is where I'm at. And I'm making myself decide something I'm totally uncomfortable with, but know will be good for me.

I'm starting a new year of being thankful, because,above everything else, I have loved taking purposeful notice of the abundant blessings God has poured out on me. And I'm so excited at how much more of a habit noticing these things has become. 

BUT, I need to work on a new discipline. Letting go.

There is a great benefit to order and organization in one's life, but frankly the need for those things has a tendency to consume me.

So, my rules for this new year: 

• I will not make it a goal to post a picture every single day.
• In fact, I will not let myself have any rule regarding how frequently/infrequently I post.
• I will post randomly (the tension is rising up in neck just typing this!).
• In eliminating the drive to show a photo for every single day, I will make more of an effort to post only photos I love. (all the things the photos showed I loved, but sometimes the actual photo wasn't the ideal representation of it)

This may sound completely over the top and dramatic to some of you. But if you know me well, then you know that this is a HUGE stretch for me. I don't handle crooked lines well, I have a breakdown when someone messes with my schedule, and I hate surprises (even good ones). Chaos & I do not mix. So to choose something that to me represents "chaos" is a big step. 

Do you think I can do it? A whole year of random??? We'll see….