Almost exactly a year ago I was having a real honest conversation with a good friend.

I shared with her something that had been true for awhile, but I didn’t really know how to change….

I told her that I felt like the time I spent reading my Bible each day was just one more thing on my to do list.  Do it, check it off, move on with the day.

I asked her if she felt the same; and she said no.

She said she used to feel that way, but not anymore.

I spent some time really wondering, pondering how to get from where I was to a new place.

I didn’t stop to think that God already knew about this need for change/growth in my life, and He would get me where I needed to be.

Through circumstances and situations I could have never anticipated, and if I had, probably would not have chosen, that part of my life has changed.

And though I may not see beauty in the way the change was brought about, I can say with all sincerity that this change is a beautiful thing.

I’m so thankful for God’s word, in a way I have never been in my life before. 

I need it.

I hunger for it.

I don’t feel like I can make it through a single day without it.

It has become life to me.

Even at times when it’s not easy to swallow, I can’t let go. 

I cling to it with all that is in me.  And pray that God will help me hold on even tighter.

I never imagined that through no “work” of my own I would move from a feeling of obligation to an all-consuming dependency. 

But I have. 

And I hope I never go back.

I rest in full confidence that God will take me wherever I need to go.  Even when all I see is an unatainable destination.